Posted by Karen May 18th, 2005 Filed under Family,Journal

Since i don’t have my computer i wrote it in my journal notebook instead. So i’ll just type it in here too.

May18,2005
2:01am

Just finished watching CSI: NY. I like it. In fact im goin’ to start watching it since i like series that makes your mind working and guessing. Awhile ago i was arguin’ with my ma coz of the electric fan. She was sayin’ to not focus the fan towards kisha and like she’s going to get sick. Before that, more like 5 min ago my sister woke up coz kisha was cryin’. She told me to get the fan focused on kisha coz she’s sweating. So i did, now mama turned the fan on me and it was soo cold. *whatta hell*..then she turned the fan off. I was like “ma you’re so confusing”. And i shot her a dissappointed look. Plus i was watching CSI, now i can’t even concentrate and understand with all these interruptions. Damn.

I was thinking about something while i was watching even that i can’t remember *sigh*. Anyhow i should brush my teeth first before i even forgot that too ewww…lol just kidding.

Ok done that and i’m back.My brother is still awake. He’s in the kitchen makin’ some drawings. And they’re really good. I can draw too but not as good as him. I haven’t really developed my skills on that. I stopped drawing when i was in High school, guess i got tired. I can only draw a simple cartoon character but not without a copy, shame huh? I was thinking of taking some pictures of my kuya’s artwork and post it here. Think that would be cool.

Hmmm another thing that got me thinking. The thing about my brother is that i know when he stays up late, almost never sleeps at all, its coz of the drugs. Sometimes i get really mad when he does it. He talks a lot when he’s high. When he’s not or when the drug eventually wears out he always sleeps a lot and gets really grumpy. A pattern. I don’t know what to do or how to react. As much as i don’t like him when he’s high, i don’t like him to get into drugs at all coz its messin’ with his brains. And he’s really smart. He excels a lot in school and now its like it went all down the drain. I just want him to stop getting high and think about his future for a change. Think about what the drugs is doing to himself.:(

Well it’s really getting late..ahh looked at my watch, its almost 4am. think i’ll go to bed. Nyt nyt..take care and see yah!