Posted by Karen December 27th, 2005 Filed under Journal

I don’t really know what to do…i feel like dying, my insides are slowly dying…i wanna escape from all this hurt…i wanna cry so hard…i can feel the numbness in my body but mostly in my heart.

I wanna be mad at him for what he’s done to me, for the broken promises and for hurting me so bad but i don’t have the strength to…maybe I’m just too naive. and i still love him..all i have for him is love…as stupid as it is after all I’ve been put through, i still do.

Now im left behind again..it hurts more than the first time he left me.

How can i heal?? when all i know was loving him…

He wants us to be friends? but how when all i want is to be with him

How can he say he loves me but leaving me behind?

I don’t wanna stay here at all…I’m torn, I’m tortured…its not someone’s fault but mine.I did it to myself.

As much as I’m hurting and as much as i love him(God knows) i have to let him go, to where he’s going to be happy.